Tueday morning and I am not in school (Y) I need to study for my exams which are postponed to next week. Speaking of which I am so not prepared how am I going to study for geog?! Sigh.
On a side note, I have partially shifted to analoghearts. Which is partially friends locked as well.
I need to develope my sampler photos which are like a week overdue ):
And I really don't know what I am doing now but I have a cough which sucks I want to eat gelare and watch Harry Potter nowwwwwwww.

I am backkkk and very burnt I don't like it even though I think I could be even darker. My head is v heavy and my cough is still here I hope I don't have h1n1. I need to cut my hair! It's in a very bad state the ends are very dry I think I was out in the Sun for too long and the seawater and chlorine makes it even worse. Shall go cut it tomorrow.
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Anyway I have every reason to be happy becauseeee
Nat is coming back!
Zhantian is coming back!
and...
EXAMS ARE POSTPONED BITCHESSSSSSSSS thank god really because I am SO NOT PREPARED what if I fail and retain omgzxx nooo

On a side note, I want to watch Transformers nowwwwwwwwwww so I can decide if Megan Fox looks more like a girl or a doode.
Okay I am going to lather aloe vera gel on myself and then sleep!

I know what I want now. Finally. I feel so stupid to have wasted so much time. I miss you very very much.

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You know what, this is too tiring. I don't know what I want, what to do or where to go from here. I don't want to make bad choices and end up hurting people. I don't want myself to feel bad. This isn't right, I am supposed to feel happy. But I am not. Instead, I feel like there are somethings that I am missing out. And these things that I left untouched will one day come back and bite me in the back. That day, I will realise that what I was doing is a lie. And I will question myself why I let myself continue with this and why I never stopped it from taking the downward plunge. I feel bad for now, really bad. But who knows what tomorrow brings. I seriously hope my tomorrow brings enlightenment. I want to figure myself out. I wish I were a book, one that I can read without any difficulties. Like that things would be laid out perfectly and all I have to do is just follow through with my heart and mind. But no, even I don't know myself. So don't tell me what to do because even I cannot decide. I am feeling very very lousy.