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You know what, this is too tiring. I don't know what I want, what to do or where to go from here. I don't want to make bad choices and end up hurting people. I don't want myself to feel bad. This isn't right, I am supposed to feel happy. But I am not. Instead, I feel like there are somethings that I am missing out. And these things that I left untouched will one day come back and bite me in the back. That day, I will realise that what I was doing is a lie. And I will question myself why I let myself continue with this and why I never stopped it from taking the downward plunge. I feel bad for now, really bad. But who knows what tomorrow brings. I seriously hope my tomorrow brings enlightenment. I want to figure myself out. I wish I were a book, one that I can read without any difficulties. Like that things would be laid out perfectly and all I have to do is just follow through with my heart and mind. But no, even I don't know myself. So don't tell me what to do because even I cannot decide. I am feeling very very lousy.